My Transformation Story

It's Never Too Late to Start

In 2018, at 36 years old, I was at the lowest point of my life, and so many people had no idea! I was in a very unhealthy marriage and struggling with my mental health. I was hanging on by a thread and my anxiety, anger, and frustration were through the roof.

I knew I had hit rock bottom when things started negatively affecting relationships outside of my marriage, particularly my work relationships. I decided I needed to make some big changes. I needed to figure out how to move from the low point I was in to at least a level state so I could then start putting in ACTUAL work to make the big changes that needed to happen.

I consciously got myself on anti-anxiety medication* (note below) in order to get myself stable enough to make changes, knowing when I got to that point I would taper myself off the medication. That's exactly what I did!

*Note: I went on and moved through taking, as well as gradually tapering off of, anti-anxiety meds under the complete supervision of a medical Psychiatrist.

The Beginning of My Joy

After being on meds for about half a year, I felt level enough to start tuning in to what I needed to actually DO to make changes. It was time to focus on ME. I made the choice to block out alllllll the noise that was coming to me about how I should be, what I should do, what I should or shouldn't eat, how I should feel, what I should believe, what I should think etc., and I started paying attention to mySELF.

I started listening. I started listening to my own body and I started to experiment with observing how things made me feel. I wanted to look at big picture feelings, too, not instant gratification. I wanted to lean into the things I knew were making me feel GOOD long term. I starting working to eliminate things that were making me feel bad, and I started paying attention to what brought me JOY, what brought me comfort, what I found beautiful...my GLIMMERS.

I was getting closer, I could feel it. In 2021 I found a mentor and coach and, like magic, after only 2 weeks of working with her (and my psychiatrist), I was completely off the meds and told my ex he needed to move out.

I was free, and my journey toward infinite self-love and healing was underway!

Time to Fly!

In the time since 2021, I have experienced expansion and transformation I never thought would be possible.

I have traveled deep within my subconscious mind, met multiple versions of myself, come face to face with my shadow self, massively shifted my perspectives, integrated parts, tuned into my soul's path and purpose, connected with Source/God/The Universe more wholeheartedly than I ever imagined I would... And I'm still going. I'll never stop!

More than ever in my life I am embracing trust. Deep trust in myself, in the process, and in the Universe. I have witnessed, channeled, and experienced the immense, and infinite, profound love the Universe has for every single one of us. Regardless of fear, pain, struggle, or any challenges that arise, I know ALL of this is FOR us, not against us.

I have chosen to walk alongside my fear. My love and deep gratitude co-exist with any negative emotions that may arise. We are all a team in here (my subconscious mind)! Nurturing and care and love are number one.

This message of infinite love and support is what I hope to bring to others. I will continue to do what I can to embody this love and hold space for others as they transform and wake up to how deeply supported they too are on this incredible human life journey!